First times always Last

Oh. I didn't expect the title of this post to have a lil irony in it. Haha! 'First' and 'Last'. Just scribbling a title into this post and poof! quite a good title. =P Alright, alright... enough about that.

Actually, I simply wanted to say how much I've actually missed my old diary. After posting my entire story up there, a wave of nostalgia washed over me. Still remembered the JC days where I pour out my hart and soul in there. During that time, unknown to almost everyone, during that time, all my entries are all subtle ways where I express my hartfelt feelings through self-experiences. All of them have a link to the actual me. The entries were not without basis, unlike some of the random thoughts I write nowadays.

Maybe it's my way of escape. Maybe it may hurt alot if I really think about myself and write based on me. Maybe I just want to try and get lost in the ambiguous words, in a bid to forget that it is actually me. Hm? Yeah, silly me.

Opendiary was the first place for me, my first haven, my first little corner in the whole wide web.

Over at opendiary, it was the first time where I experienced the power of words; the pen is mightier than the sword. It was also where I penned my first entry and that first entry which caused me to cry in front of my PC. I kept telling myself to stop, that I should be stronger than that and it was nothing but the past. But did I listen myself? I guess I was rebellious... That incident was so bad, I couldn't finish writing it in one sitting without running to the washroom, and returning again to finish it again, which promptly ended me up in the washroom again.. -_-"'

Yep, I never told anyone about that, so I guess this is my first too.. That was the power of words.

I like my new place, "ChroNicLeS of the HaRt™" but ultimately, I still feel more 'intimate' with opendiary. If I have more sensitive stuff to think about, I'll still think of opendiary. Maybe "CotH™" will contain random and meaningful thoughts. Yeah, maybe that'll work out.

Some time ago, I was still thinking if I should give it up since it's nothing but filled with the past... and now, I'm thinking I should keep it going and fill it with my future.